Questions about HIM

So as I was sitting in church today, my ADD kicked in.. I looked up at the cross and wondered what the exact physical attributes of God were? Was God 6'6'', 180 lbs, caucasian man, with blond curly locks, eyes as blue as the ocean, size 12 in sandals, etc, etc???? That thought made me go on to think, so I am physically larger than God was, but God is actually bigger than any one or anything in the world.

Next, I looked at the congregation and wondered, "Even though some believe there is no God, it is a pretty amazing idea by someone. So, how can there not be at least some form of higher being?" After all of the research that has been done, it is amazing to know that still, no one has made enough of a difference to stop hundreds of thousands of people from believing.

So, in my religious journey, the facts become harder to overlook. I believe a lot of things that are taught about God in general, but there is something about the fact that I must see things to believe them, and I have been told so many times how unfortunate that is, but how common it is as well. It is hard to overlook everything that has gone on with God, and it is hard to believer there is no God.

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So I have figured out that I believe there is no way there is no God, but it seems incredibly hard for me to believe that there is. I am a man of logic. Since i know there must be a God, I should be able to understand that God does exist, yet, I also believe that I need to see something to make it logical. It is a difficult concept to grasp, and even though I know I'm not alone in my questing of faith, it is hard to find those that feel the same without offending anyone (by the way, I am sorry if this does offend you).

So, if I have learned anything today, its that God or some form of higher being must exist, but currently, I am unable to put my whole heart into it.